Struggling...

Was it really a smart decision to diet right before the holidays? Nope, but I am doing it. Struggling, but doing it. I am down 17 lbs and I don't think many people really notice. I am proud of it, but wonder how did I get here? I have always on the thin side, never really had to worry about my weight and then, when the kids starting coming....you know the cycle. Gain a bunch of weight while pregnant, lose all but 10 pounds....next kid, lose all but 15 pounds, and so on. Til you get to a point where you are 5o lbs overweight. tomorrow will be a true test.....all that candy in the house when I am being careful, along with my "friend" arriving any day should prove interesting in the restraint area...wish me luck.

Oh yeah and being addicted to Pepsi doesn't help!

Enough!!!!

Enough already. I can't take much more of it. I need to vent about

*the sil who only cares about herself.
*the mil who has become so anal that I can't even bear to be around her..
*the same mil who only invites me over to clean her house.
*the same sil who STILL has not invited us or at least her only brother to her house since they moved here a year ago.
*my mother who is so infuriating that I want to scream. Head games are forever going on with her. One day she is trying to have a somewhat normal(whatever that really means) mother/daughter relationship and the next she has a huge brick wall wedged between us. I don't get it.
*my father who doesn't care one way or another what is going on in our lives. Just keep those Sunday visits to a total of 20 minutes and all is right in the world.
*my bil of the same sil who does not offer to help his mil do ANYTHING.
*my grandmother who doesn't call and then when you do, she lets you know that she hasn't talked to anyone in 4 days. Talk about a guilt trip. She is capable of driving, she goes to a women's group at church, she plays cards with a group of women. She can come visit us. UGH!
*my other grandmother who lives on the other side of the country, who won't tell you when she is ill and you have to find out from other family relatives cause she is so stubborn.
*my neighbor across the street asking to borrow $20 and then calls you to tell you that she hasn't forgotten about me, but can she borrow $20 more. I turn her down and a week later she calls to say that she has my cash, but when I sent over my son to get it...she tells him all she has is a check and I need to take her to cash it???? That was a month ago. She borrowed money from each of the neighbors, about $120 all together. Stupid girl. Does she think I don't know why she keeps asking for more in $20 increments? Can you guess what it probably was for? How sad. Now, if she really needs help for something legitimate...no one will help her. And she never paid anyone back. Pisses me off.
*the little girls at my daughter's school. The 1st day of school, they let her know that they can only have 6 best friends and she was number 7. They can still be friends, but she won't ever be there best friend. What the hell? Like starting a new grade isn't hard enough, but to be told that on her first day, that just sucked. It makes me sick that these little girls are already learning to be so cruel to someone.
*if you are in the store and an adorable 2 year old says hello to you....is it really so hard to say hello back? Really? Okay what if you are in a store and an unattractive 2 year old says hello to you....is it really so hard to say hello back? The rudeness is really getting to me people!


THANks for letting me vent. It may seem trivial, but to me it is driving me crazy. So thanks for listening pink apt neighbors!

What I have always wanted.....

An open package of switchplates, a used crystal christmas plate and a garlic press you were going to put in goodwill. Yep, that's what I was asking Santa for this year. Sorry about the dripping sarcasm, but really? I have spent about 10 days at your home cleaning it, decluttering it, and trying to make it easier for you to get around and you want to give me all the stuff that was going into the trash or goodwill to me for Christmas? Am I missing something?

What do you say?

When your sil repeatedly tells you to save all of your daughters clothing for the baby that they MIGHT be adopting/filling out paperwork for. She has been saying this since my 5 year old was born. What am I your personal storage facility...just in case you have a child? I did save my 1st daughter's clothes because

1. She grew out of them so fast, they were all new or only worn once and I couldn't part with them.

2. In case we had another girl...which we did and am I happy I kept all that stuff!

3. And of course, cause some of the clothes I just couldn't part with.....all the memories.



In no way, was I ever thinking of saving the clothes for her & her baby.

(Of course I will spoil the baby rotten if my sil will let me...cause it isn't the baby's fault we have drama!)



Reasons being

1. Every first time mother wants all new clothes or slightly used clothes for their new baby, not clothes that have gone through 2 babies.

2. She has been such a cold bitch(yeah, I went there....omg I am taking quotes from Hannah Montana...somebody slap me) to me, my husband and our children under the guise of being"just so busy".

3. She NEVER EVER buys my children anything unless it is their birthday or Christmas. So, why am I going to save everything we have ever had to give to her? Can you imagine. I always dreamed that when I was an aunt I would take them on surprise outings, leave fun trinkets for them to find from me....just fun stuff, but she doesn't.

4. When we were pregnant with my inlaws 1st grandchild, she tells my mil that the stroller is an expensive enough gift for us. Of course, my mil listened...but still. It's okay to tell her mother she needs an ice cream attachment to her kitchen-aid that runs over $100, but for heaven's sake don't spend $150 or more on a stroller for your FIRST GRANDCHILD! Don't even get me started on that she put her name on the card and never...never paid for a portion of it.

5. Oh, the list could go on and on.



What do you think? Am I being petty? There is so much of a back story that it is hard to convey how much I dislike her. She is selfish, conceited, and ignorant and drives me crazy and that is all going to get worse once(if) she adopts.....ugh.

Thanks for letting me vent.............me being her matron of honor w/my husband as the best man with a month notice is another story for another day.

Hey, we all need a break right?

I actually sent all 4 of my kids to their rooms for a nap. Yep, even the 13 year old. I can only take so much bickering! Now, to be fair, I really only wanted the baby to nap and the others play quietly in their room. Of course, they all hate me....hating me in their dreams. ALL 4 are asleep. I can't quite believe my good fortune. I know it will only last 20 minutes or so, but so nice and peaceful. I can listen to my ipod.. I Kissed a girl rocks...I love it! Shake it by Metro Station....reminds me of the killers & the cure. And my Pork & Beans from Weezer.


Oh yeah, am I the only one who loves Kelly from youtube Shoes fame? I can't get enough of his skits...there is a new one I wanted to add here, but kept having a problem with blogger. It's called No Booty Calls....HYSTERICAL! I think it is anyhow. Check it out.

Sweet with a side of sour...

My mil was so nice to ride along with me while I picked up my eldest from camp today. She stayed in the car with the other 3 while I went inside to sign him out....dragging them all in is such a hassle(sometimes all 3 are asleep!). The convo was good until my sil was brought into it.As she always is because she is the center of the universe, well my mil's universe anyway. So, she starts talking about how busy my sil is, etc. Then she drops this one on me. Sil has it hard, she has to work all day long and come home and take care of 4 dogs. 4 dogs is alot harder than 4 children. You have to clean their bed everyday, clean their bowls, feed them, bathe them and walk them. I wanted to seriously hurt the woman.

Now before anyone gets all mad at me, let me explain that I do love animals...especially dogs. I have never had 4 dogs at once and i know alot of people treat their animals as though they are their children. That is fine. I see nothing wrong with it. Do you think I am wrong to be hurt by her words? I don't complain often to them about my everyday life at home with the kids(that is why I am so glad I was directed here...thank you Constance14k) and when they have pity on me when the kids are acting a little crazy in front of them I throw it off with a "oh, you know kids". I don't tell them that there are days that I have to give myself time-outs, that the screaming, bickering, fighting and general loud playing is doing me in....I just don't want their sad sympathy...it is so syrupy and fake and makes me feel like I am such a pathetic soul.

Okay this is going in so many different directions, I don't even know what my point was. What do you think about her comment? Was I reading too much into it? It hurt as though....anyone can be a mother, but to take on 4 dogs...well that is just miraculous.

Are you joking?

If you are driving a black Honda Odyssey that looks about the same year as mine....are you really revving your engine to race me? Do you think yours has more pick-up? Do you realize how pathetic that really is? Especially since you are like all of 22 years old and I am a 35 year old mother of FOUR children that are in the said van?

Ha, we had a good laugh at your expense. Sure you get alot of dates with those cool moves.